Feeling A Little Weird

I've been trying to remain optimistic about this new venture coming up in my life.  I have come to realize now that I am scared shitless!  Sure I have a husband who can support the household but it's kinda like I don't know what to do with myself!  I've got these great ideas and am dragging my feet about implementing them.  Am I afraid to fail?  Could be.

How do I get over this fear?  I know I know what I know.  I have confidence.  I am not the shy 20 year old I once was.  I just have to get out there and do it.

Pray for me.

Designer Pooches?

I had a Boston Terrier named Judo Chop for a few years.  He was the sweetest.  He had his moments where I had to put him in his place and remind him who was the boss, but he was a great dog.  He was small, not quit pocket sized and didn't bark much.  This was key since I really wasn't supposed to have him in my apartment!  An incident happened with my husband and I felt it was best to send him to live with relatives.  I miss him terribly, but it was one of those necessary things.


Now, I want another dog (despite the fact that I'm not supposed to have a pet).  Judo 2.0 so to speak.  I don't think I want a puppy.  I think I would prefer to have a rescue dog.  The hubby indicated he likes the mini-Boxer.  Initially I searched PetFinder.  There is no listing for this breed.  So I'm like WTH.  This breed is like a unicorn...lol.  I do a Google search and lo and behold, I discover that it is a designer breed.  This breed is created by crossing a Boxer and a Boston Terrier.

 After doing a little research, I found that this designer breed can cost up to $2000 per puppy!  That is a hell of an investment!  But look at him!  I'm torn!  We gotta move so I can accommodate this pups needs and I need to save some cash!  

The thing I found most interesting was that there is a plethora of designer breeds.  I had no freaking idea!  Mini Rottweilers and Min-Pins; it goes beyond the typical mixed breed mutt.  The cross breeding takes into account the look of the dog and the temperament.  Various dogs are bred for so many different reasons.  The main difference is that these designer dogs are purebreds being bred as opposed to not knowing the lineage of the dog(s) being mated.

Very interesting reading.  I have a lot more research to do.  I just know that the Chopper is irreplaceable.

Getting Better/Flying Leaps

Ok, so now I'm getting a little better at remembering to post when I have an idea.  I'm working my arse off, well ok not really, but it seems I'm super busy as of late.  The thought of not having a steady income scares the bejeezus out of me, but excites me at the same time.  What's that about?

Business ventures are coming and going.  I do know I'll get out of it what I put into it, but still its the waiting and anticipation that sucks.  I have help, but this nagging feeling of doing stuff on my own: PRIDE.  Its a mofo.  Seriously.

Oh and who came up with these freelance sites?  I stumbled upon this site called oDesk.  The premise is very cool.  Employers go on there and post up positions/tasks for various things.  As an American, though.....grrrrr....I'm competing with folks who will gladly work for $0.50 an hour.  How do I compete with that?  I don't.  I won't.  I'm not looking to get rich or run my household on that, but jeesh!  I can't even wrap my head around it.

I'm off to catch the Hot Topics on Wendy Williams (my guilty pleasure), then its off to the races.

Keeping Up

So I have not kept up with this bright idea of mine to blog.  My birthday is a couple weeks away. I found out last month that I am being laid off from my job at th end of the year.  Not tripping on that but the uncertainty is definitely unnerving to say the least.  I have some things rolling around to do from home.  The self employment thing.   Is it a blessing in disguise?  Am I taking a leap of faith by not looking for another 9 to5?  Or am I just lazy?  Time will tell I guess.

Inauguration Overload

So yesterday we were bombarded with info on the Presidential Inauguration.  I'm not hating, but I'm not a political person.  I take my news in doses.  All day coverage was overkill in my opinion.  I will say that I appreciated the coverage after coming across this gem:



It made the entire thing worthwhile.  I love the FLOTUS.

Something New for the New Year

I have never tried this before so bear with me if I get stale, lame, or just out and out nuts.  I wanted to do something a little different for 2013.  I thought blogging might be a good way to vent or chronicle this new year and new phase in my life.

I turned 40 last fall and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it.  I don't feel any different, but I have been called ma'am more than once this week.  I can say I'm noticing changes in my body that I don't like.  It may be the different hours that I'm keeping, but either way, putting on weight is not hot.  My night vision sucks.  I think I need a chauffeur 

I am contemplating life more.  I am more or less at the halfway point and I still don't quite know if I'm doing what I'm supposed to, if that makes sense.  My career path I stumbled upon.  I enjoy what I do, but is it what I want to retire from?  I don't know.

At any rate, I plan to keep this going through the end of the year.  I doubt that I'll be a daily blogger, but I will check in at least weekly.  I think that sounds reasonable.  That photo a day thing sounds easy, but I'm not creative anymore.  I can't take pictures of myself everyday and post them.  That's lame.

So, nice to meet ya and feel free to check in with your opinions, suggestions, etc.